just because everythings changing.

2009-07-10T09:37:00.000-07:00

Its been a while since i saw your smile

a fixed picture in my memory

to spend with you even for a little while

depicts a million stories

Cell outing at my house.

2009-05-30T06:38:00.000-07:00

It's Saturday 30 may 2009, 11.30 we left for my house and for the first time i

drove 6 people including myself from church to hse.

it was intense :) haha..

felt heavy i have to say but the car seem quite stable.

regardless we reached there safe due to my absolutely awesome driving skills.

when we reached home, we immediately ordered pizza which arrived so fast!

i'm glad domino's are just outside my house.

anyway we finally began the process of baking.it was pretty hectic at first cause everyone was "blur" but they had me and i'd done it a gazillion times..maybe..and so we eventually settled and started. we all took turns adding in the butter,sugar,essence,flour,milk and many other stuff however some was just bumming around waiting

for it to be made..haha you know who you are

but all in all everyone chipped in a little effort.

then came the best part which was decorating the cupcakes. it was super fun!

charlene was making the icing while we dipped our hands into them to try, few seconds later everyone got high on sugar and started blotting out faces with icing.

i guess you could say it was a "free facial", sure did felt like it :P

after the many laughter's and EATING we went upstairs to watch

"the notebook"

yes ryan gosling is indeed very hot.

haha but the story line was good as well ;)

had to come to the rescue as some part were inappropriate. ;)

finally ended the day by going to church for service.

in a nutshell it was a great and fufilling day.

here are some pictures we took, enjoy:

eirena's first cupcake.

tiffany trying to be funny blocking the cupcakes with her hand :P

GO CARAZY ON ICING BEBEH!

eirena placing her master piece down.

yummmyyy......

joey and me.

eirena,joey, suwen, playing around :P

colourful cuppiecakes

jessie.

jamie.

chocochip cupcakes and charlene :)

Mmmmmmmmmmmm.......

crazy about..

2009-05-04T10:05:00.001-07:00

These days it's been so difficult for me to lay of the

most delicious thing anyone can ever have.

cereals!!!

okay i know its may not be EVERYONES cup of tea. But once you go there

you'll never stop craving for more.

okay now starting to sound a little bit like a loon.

but i'll let you be the judge of that.

cause cereals cannot get better than this...

feeling the rush of siliva coming from those glands!

too bad they dont serve it here :(

ah well you've seen it all...so what are you waiting for...get into your car and go have yourself a delicious box of "healthy" cereal.

your life would never be the same again.

2009-04-19T05:29:00.000-07:00

You are the peace that guards my heart
My help in time of need
You are the hope that leads me on
and brings me to my knees

For there i find you waiting
and there i find release
So with all my heart i'll worship
and unto you i'll sing

For you alone deserve all Glory
For you alone deserve all praise
Father we worship and adore you
Father we long to see your face

For you alone deserve all glory
For you alone deserve all praise
Father we love you
and we worship you this day.

trust you.

Absence

2009-04-10T12:35:00.000-07:00

“I haven't seen you in a while,

yet I often imagine all your expressions.

I haven't spoken to you recently, but many times I hear your thoughts.

Good friends must not always be together.

It is the feeling of oneness, when distant that proves a lasting”

su, you know i miss you like crazy!

Sydney boy.

Vynecia :) miss those college days

Yi lin, now in UK. come back! miss those library gossiping days ;)

christine :) miss your cheekyness.

haha! justin :) still remember you sleeping during bio class when i placed that on your specs. miss you la.

timothy!! you betrayed me when you went to Monash but were still friends..i guess :P

jin ern! so did YOU and i know why.hmph! :P

huei yuih! where have you been?? never fail to cheer me up.

jane, love our long/short chit chats.. miss those days.

goodmorning.

2009-04-03T11:11:00.000-07:00

it's late, i know but i rarely feel the urge anymore to blog even as work has suddenly taken a whole new level bombarding me with new lecture notes till it makes you wonder "is there really no end to this?"
not in med school there isnt. :)

Semester 1 and im already loaded with plenty of processes,cycles, scientific terms and long profound words that seriously tests your brain capacity. It's all apart of medical school i suppose, from the words of coldplay "nobody said it was easy". Yeap nobody did, i was actually prewarned about the load and stress i might be facing for 5 or more years. Nonetheless i find it like a transmigration that i'm yet to discover. The information that we can gain or rather the knowledge we obtain through this course is unfathomable. You think you know so much but there comes a whole list of endless things to absorb from.

For the past few weeks i have been spending time just trying to engulf everything that has been taught. It definetely is not easy but when studying comes hand in hand with friends around, it's way better. Somehow you retain the information better and it boosts your morale to a certain extend. So thats why i have changed my whole scope of studing and am bringing it to the library where all the book worms are ;) haha... this is not as bad as it sounds.

On the brighter side, i had fun today jamming at the music room in IMU. Well, it's not so much of me doing the jamming cause my band or our upcoming band to be didnt really prepare songs to practice on so instead we stood as spectators watching in awe the hidden and NOW revealed talents of IMU. Yes the electric guitar player went sky rocketing as he slid across the guitar strings with fingers moving with the speed of....whats faster than light... his fingers ok! no kidding. It sounded great. Adding to that the drummer was pretty good to, so i asked him to teach me a few beats, he did and surprisingly i manage to follow spot on. ;) hmm..hidden talent?perhaps. All i need is practice.

soon afterwards had a meeting with church friends as to discuss on our screen play tomorrow afternoon. Excited as i have never officially acted before in anything. I'm usually the background prop or the women that screams behind the scene's. Well so happen i have that role in this play but with a little extra lines to it. I hope i dont freak tmrw then forget my lines, or not i'm gonna have to do some improvising.

It's later already and im really feeling tired. Of to my bed now.
goodnight.

Wrecking ball.

2009-04-03T10:35:00.000-07:00

I made a wreck out of my hand,
I put it through the wall.
I made a fist and not a plan,
call me a wreckless wrecking ball.
I threw my plates against the walland give it all I got.
I aim to break,
not one but all,
I'm just a big ol' wrecking ball.

I am unruly in the stands,
I am a rock on top of the sand,
I am a fist amidst the handsand I break it just because I can.

It takes a dedicated hand to put it through the wall.
You gotta wanna break the hearts of all those pretty porcelain dolls.
You gotta wanna be the drummer in the band
You gotta wanna be a battle ring ram
You gotta see the artistry in tearing the place apart with me

*the music for this song is unbelievable. ;) love the drumming.

letting out.

2009-03-29T04:13:00.000-07:00

my heart beats faster and faster,

unknowing what lies ahead of me,

breath is slowly ready to suffocate my air machine

still there is plenty of room for more.

the spaces around me is getting tighter and tighter

maybe thats why its hard to see

the world around me is getting bigger and bigger

take a little step and breath.

not sure if im lying or sitting

can't i understand why?

my eyes are flickering

close then open

hope to see some green green leaves.

its not a song nor a letter

its not a hate nor a lover

its gotta be a question or an answer

it has to be a yes or a no.

dont be hesitant or so i tell myself

wait wait wait

i dont have the ability to see beyond the rainbow

but i'm hoping i find a small pot of gold.

black and comfortable.

2009-03-13T04:04:00.000-07:00

i finally found it!

my soul shoes :)

2009-02-27T12:31:00.001-08:00

i need comfy flats

track trip.

2009-02-27T12:19:00.000-08:00

katherine

O.O's

kristel and kat

becky

amylia

C.O.F.F.E.E

a glimpse of my experience.

The fifth...

2009-02-27T11:34:00.001-08:00

My life as a university student has finally commenced, i'm taking my hand of the breaks and heading for the wild. *jumps for joy* haha :)

during my first day at uni, it was suprisingly not too bad as some might think otherwise. Was a little freaked out at the amount of people there were and how they all look strangely alike, maybe it was just the outfit which they impress on us to wear

1. t-shirt

2. long black slacks or below knee skirt

3. and well thats basically it...

boring right, i know!

looking on the brighter side of things people cant easily pridict you and i woundn't end up getting a whole new wardrobe at the end of the semester and for 2nhalf years. Imagine that!

wouldn't want to :P

speaking of the fifth, it has been 5 days since i entered IMU.

i'd like to say people are like "sugar and spice and everything nice" but i think i'll just go with absolutely spectacular! ;)

they are just so easy to click with and so enthusiastic, not to mention the seniours..seriously i think they are loud and crazy enough to wake the dead ;p

nonetheless we freshies need some of that in our soon to be lifeless lives.

coming back orientation in IMU was nothing like i expected it to be like. Already the first day they started raging people asking them to do silly stunts. Very laughable. Good thing they went easy on me, don't think i would have recovered from all the trauma.

So who says medical students are boring?

i say it's time to reinvent a brand new fashion line.

2009-02-22T07:53:00.000-08:00

COLD FEET??

2009-02-17T10:18:00.000-08:00

rearrange the arranged me.

2009-02-17T09:20:00.000-08:00

finally, it's about time ive gotten out of my comfort and start looking up the
definitions of discipline, motivation and hardwork. Ughh!.. even thinking about it makes me wanna fall asleep.
Whats killing me now is that i can't just go about my day doing what i do best which is basically waking up LATE, reading what i want to, jogging for as long as i want and baking.
its something i live by, something i've got to make do with and something i've been doing the past 8 months?. could life get boring-er?? =p
Well i guess now my body is trying to tell me that i've got to re-arrange my lifestyle, habits and routinish thinking and start adapting to my oh to soon to be life.

yes in approximately FOUR! days im starting a brand new chapter in my life which is the
inevitable days of university. I know to some people uni is just uni, as simple as that, but im kinda excited but at the same time scared and when i say scared i mean the kind which bring chill's down your spine. ahaha...maybe im over emphasising or maybe not, who knows....
all i know is that im not growing younger and if my instincts does not fail me im guessing a whole lot of responsibilities are about to pile up like never before.

bahhh...people say that it's in university that most of the events which happen will follow you for the rest of your life.

like... work, friends, love, family...and the worst part is, it's all gonna happen in a blink of an eye.

as scary as that may sound, i don't want my life to just swift by and at the same time being able to predict every part of it. So come what may, life.
Im tired of trying to figure you out and to decipher it.

im just gonna let it come.

goodbye.

2009-02-09T06:00:00.001-08:00

you were once goofy and funny like this picture

now all the goof and fun has followed you to Sydney.

so take your happy disease and infect all those who need it.

coz we've kinda had enough of ya ;)

haha...just kidding we just need a break from you so that when

you come back

we wont get bored =p

anyways you take care and have fun!

will be seeing you soon.

2009-02-03T09:02:00.000-08:00

laughter is what i need right now

2009-02-01T10:28:00.001-08:00

Chinese New Year 2009

2009-02-01T09:02:00.000-08:00

My favourite chinese new year dish during this festive season. Its absolutely delish and mouth watering. Ughh... how i wish they didn't just sell it during cny. Doesn't matter, thats probably why i appreciate it all the more every year. ;)

well this time food has become a very prominent word in my vocabulary as well as in my stomach, i have never eaten THAT much snacks before in a day for 5 consecutive days. seriously, im glad this just happens for a year or i'll be twice the size i am right now. (or even bigger, yikes!)

no matter cny is almost at an end and not only will i be in better control of my uncontrolable eating habits but i will also be able to open all my angpao's. yep sounds wierd but we are traditional people and it is only right if i do the same. But then again no harm in opening a few packets :p

other than those, been visiting tons of relatives, friends, and random unknown people :P a.k.a parents friends. Making lots of noise and at the same time practicing my tongue-tied cantonese.

Got to know some people better and talk so much till i think my throat is about completely dry.regardless of that with much clatter also came plenty of speechlessness. Yeap sometimes age does matter. All in all i had my fair share of conversations.

Besides hanging out with the relatives, glad i could spend time with my friends both from church and college.

On a heavier note im entering uni in 23 days and my nerves are going crazy.

cant wait! ;)

The stage is yours.

2009-01-24T09:54:00.000-08:00

A very fine Saturday today, i woke up early and did my
devotion. It was a time to reflect

about life and what part

or role in life right now i'm taking as a christian.

It's never easy thinking back through the many years

and deciding which scene or part in our existance that we should

place most important.

or to zero into all of lifes happenings and wish that you could remember them clearly.

Well as i try to recall them all,

"time has a funny way on showing you that your aging by the minute".

i just pondered on the complex nature of God.

In my journey, God remains the same.

It wasn't Him that changed for me but rather i changed for Him.

Everyday of my life i knew it's gonna be a new change.

and a good change. For Him being the God that He is crystally reminded me that i could put my trust in him, that all i need and more is right here with me.

So having trust for something intangible cause me to really treasure this relationship cause

it's hardly easy to keep the bond secure if were out of sight.

even as an actress

regardless of the many flaws that occur on stage like forgetting the lines

or tripping in front of a thousand audience

or even being criticized for bad acting skills

i wanna be strong and unyielding

holding steadfast to my passion and keep on trying till i get it.

i wanna be trusting eventhough times are faced to the ground.

and i wanna be hopeful for whats yet to come.

so right now this very second i am an actress and i have a role to play.
not a big part but a part nonetheless.

what am i gonna do with this confidence?

take that role and make every moment of it count.

also with a little of class added to it ;)

Cake full of chocolate lurv.

2009-01-22T08:26:00.000-08:00

today was a day full of pain and delight all at the same time. It started of with shopping, one of every girls favourite mode of entertainment and yes i was shopping alone. Well it wasn't that bad, got many things done in a short time and visited many outlets.
Unfortunately almost every clothing store i went to had prices way beyond my budget. So i just stared at them with absolute sorrow.. and passed by. =p

YES very painful to watch but i had to endure.

on the brighter side i got this white long sleeve top which i really like that can be worn on any occation and at the same time able to match with this awesome vest that i bought before.
That cost me only RM29 which was from forever 21. I thought it was a good investment. ;)
although it wasnt some fancy top...me like

Still the worst was yet to come.

Was really looking forward to going to this dinner that was planned a week ago and i told her i could come. But as usual my transportation bailed on me last minute and i couldn't go.
So as human as i can be i sulked and moped around the house like a sloth! haha...
but then i told myself, i'm not gonna let that get the better out of me. SO!
I came out with the most brilliant idea *ting!!* light bulb flashes

i was gonna bake myself a cake full of chocolate love.

and so i did. In the beggining i was quite curious cause according to instructions i had to leave the batter in the oven for an hour and a half. But in the end it came out preety moist.

on the inside that is.. it was completely burnt on the outside. Spent like 1/2 hour scraping of the burnt parts. After that had it coated with chocolate honey drip. Which was extreamily sweet!
but still delicious ;)

if you dont trust me, see for yourself....

okay me and my sister couldn't resist and had to nick a slice of "muahs" scrumptious cake.

living proof of almost half of the cake that was scraped of. The other half that was burnt to a crisp! :P

a very satisfied customer ;)

some more advertising....

Anyways the bottom line is that i ended the day well :)

my cake turned out OKAY, i bought a simple but nice top.* didn't splurge*

and overcame some of the worlds most crappiest moments.

So yea there are ups and there are downs but the moment we choose to take hold of the situation, the outcome is very rewarding... and i like to think that God has every influence in my choices. It's what makes me.

Rambut Potong.

2009-01-15T11:47:00.000-08:00

i easily get bored with my hair style so i had to do something with it . i think it's inevitable for me to ever keep long hair.
sighh...

some of my seriously poser pictures, don't mind the face i'm actually promoting my hairstylist which i forgot to ask her name.

this beautiful dress that i spotted at "the island" however too expensive for my taste, or maybe too expensive for me to afford....
which reminds me... resolution no.9..=p

Thats what girls do...

girl's enter lala land...

more extream lala poses.

Snap back to reality..

Jack of all trades, master of none.

2009-01-15T09:57:00.000-08:00

At the present,

i always say that i'm gonna do this or i'm gonna keep that or i'm gonna finish this or i'm gonna get that but it's rarely happening in "real life".

it's crazy how your long list of "things to do" which constantly plays in your mind keeps on piling up as we choose not to look after it. yes, it is true the longer the list grows the higher degree of stress we attain.

it's actually scientifically proven by the "National Place To Prove It's True".
So for what it's worth i believe that this year has to become some what of an accomplishment and in order to achieve that i am gonna have to take desperate measures.hence i have written a list of things which i must to do so that my miscellaneous will be much easier to handle.

Compulsary things to do:

1. Tidy up the bed.
2. Pick the poop
3. Bathe the dog
4. Clean the floor's
5. Study!
6. Drink water.
7. Feed the animals.
8. Study again!
9. Walk the dog?
10.JOG!

sounds like a fairly monotonous life, i know! it's kinda what goes through the four corners of my head every single day!. It's a vicious cycle that everybody goes through.

However through my life time experience it's not as uninteresting as it seems. There are always ways to create the fun out of all the boring-ness that we see.

So all i gotta do is think positive. Think that when i tidy up my bed i wouldn't have to do it later, or when i pick the poop i wouldn't have to pick it twice *just incase the scoop cannot contain all the poop the 1st round*, or when i bathe the dog my friends will have no reason whatsoever not to come and visit me, or when i drink water i wont have to complain of constipation =p... and so on. See i'm feeling the fun already.

Oh well it's something i have to do to keep myself entertained.

many things we say or think may eventually end up not being done, but it's not how many things you can achieve that makes a person but weather you did it with purpose for excellence that builds their character.

2009-01-13T08:35:00.000-08:00

what's the first thing that comes to your mind when you see this?

i'm brain dead

literally!

Sleep typing.

2009-01-12T11:16:00.000-08:00

haha! it's 3.17 in the morning and i'm still awake.

see what the hol's have done to me! i'm sleep typing ;) people should try it sometime.

crappy things about today:
1. Didn't get to go jogging. blame the rain.

2. Picked up pepper's du. yuck!

happy things about today:
1. Convinced mummy to buy ingredients for cupcakes.

2. Choose my songs for worship. ;)

3. Sang in the bathroom. *its amazing how well i can sing in there*

4. Panged.

5. Watched a bit of grey's.

6. Visited granparents.

7. Saw this really funny random dude with an afro hairstyle and massive glasses. *classic*

8. OoOHh!!....and danced to the song "dancing queen" in the car while the music was on. i think i officially scared the taxi driver on my left. :)

happy moments:bad moments
8:2

conclusion=a good day.

Sometimes screaming just wont do.

2009-01-12T09:12:00.000-08:00

there are moments in your life when you just feel like shouting or yelling or something which makes an extreamily loud and annoying sound. ahhhhhh!!!

haha okay just a random thought.

Ever felt like the smallest thing we do or don't do make you just say something or shout. You wanna say it out loud so that everyone will know what your true feelings are and well the expression is kinda shared which seizes the moment a little longer.
Obviously the emotions are triggered by someone else, a human, an event or even an animal.
well these emotions are exactly the reason why we so loudly scream.

......."calling mel to earth"......

yea, well i have had my fair share of screams the past few days/months including last year. both good and bad. it all begins with the unexpected and then triggers the suprise element. well speaking of suprises, december really did a fast one on me.

In the midst of my very long busy, hectic holidays *can you imagine* i was anxiously waiting for a reply from my university and because i only applied for that particular one i really depended on it. It was my only chance of fufilling my "cita-cita" =p so to say. So i waited and waited yet no reply.

As my waiting prolonged i realised that my anxiety became less. i worried less and had this funny peaceful feeling inside. i liked it. It gave me the assurance that all will go well.

ok i know your getting bored so to cut the extreamily long long story short [trust me i can go on forever], i got into the uni that i wanted. It wasn't the best there was despite the career i choose but i think it a privilage to have entered it.

Now this gave me that tingling sensation, an inner scream that most definitely could not be defined even out loud. I was more than just happy, i felt like i belong. Most importantly i knew God had answered my prayer right from the moment i decided to follow his way.

never thought i'd say this but i'm really looking forward to this year. It may not be easy but i dare say i trust You with everything i've got.
It's gonna be awesome.

RESOLUTIONS?

2009-01-10T12:11:00.000-08:00

yes it's much easier said than done..... so how does one do it?
what a better way than to post it here so that all my readers that now know my "resolutions" can remind me. i'm counting on you! it may not be an easy task but i'm trusting my"year" into the palm of your hands.......

yea right!!!

haha, coming back...these are a few of the many things i wish to achieve this year:

firstly, i absolutely want to

increase in my love for jesus

with all my heart.

want to grow in my
worship
for Jesus within Nst
and also my daily devotion.

pray with a wholehearted
faith.

become the geekiest geek alive.

be more
daring to do
crazy stunts.

develop a closer bond with my girlfriends.

treasure and appreciate all my friends.

expand my knowledge by sense of reading.

turn away from all my bad habits.

f.y.i~ i don't smoke or drink...the rest, haha maybe i need to cut down :P

believe in the impossible.

Every journey starts with but a single step.

2009-01-10T09:32:00.000-08:00

so far it's been a great year, it's only 11 days past 2008 and i'm enjoying every bit of it.

well at least for now :P regardless of the past i am absolutely anxious for this year.

Now although people has been talking about how fast days and months in a year past by, i really want my year to count.

so i ask myself [again] how so? well in order to begin i have to place a reason for the year and the very reason is change. what is life and who are we if we remain the same year after year?

so i told myself: change thats what i want and the only way to make it is to be it!

comparing last year, mistakes have changed me and decisions have mold me. i grew mainly in my character and discovering more of myself. It's definitely been a challenging yet a thankful year. so many things to grumble about yet with one thing grumble about i find a thousand other things i can give thanks for.

with this year i want to grow and not just grow grow but really bloom and be fruitful.

hence with every decision that i make, i'd want to know that my ability to recieve and contain anything that comes my way will keep on increasing and increasing to greater heights.

then again what is words if there are no actions? what is love if you cant have it forever? what is passion if it's for the wrong cause? what is life without a reason for living?

"As a dream comes when there are many cares,

so the speech of a fool when there are many words"

"Much dreaming and many words are meaningless.

therefore stand in awe of God"

Ecclesiastes 5 : 3 & 7

2009-01-09T11:24:00.000-08:00

i need sleep now!

part and parcel of my 2008.

2009-01-08T12:59:00.000-08:00

the people that mean the world to me *em you mean the world to me to* i just lov this picture ;)

yes debbie! i did not forget you ;) and am waiting for your return! haha...

*btw we didnt really take many pictures so this was the only one i found*

christmas eve with sharmane and shealin. <3> trip to Langkawi with both my lovely sisters

(hannah) (emilyn)

Narrowstreet youth camp!

"stand for the word or fall for the world"

"CHRISTmas"

HAHA! sorry but i couldn't find a better picture to display ;)

narrowstreet leaders camp :P
"classic picture"

the very first steps of me attempting to look like "guan yin"
or so they call it :P (wtverr)

bestie leaves for United Kingdom :(

yeap! hospital attachment ;)

Shealin's 21st birthday at Full House

My 19th birthday at T.G.I.F with college friends

geofferey (if i remember how to spell it ;P)
birthday outing.

daniel tan(siva) farewell! :)

sitting on the floor at some random place outside Zara

talked about everything! enjoyed your company Su!

"Couz Talent Night"

where we won RM500!!

Prom Night HELP university college

emilyn's birthday!!! <3

Happy birthday sister!

you gettin old babe :)

Maybelyn's 19th birthday :)

had fun and enjoyed the company.

missing everyone!

mission trip to the mokens~an eye opener,

changed my perspective

towards mission's and life. truly one of my greatest
highlights of the year.

these are part of the many awesome pictures i took during 2008.

what makes it extra awesome is the faces in the pictures {corny i know} :P

but true nonetheless.

hope to share the joy and laughter once again this year!

love ya'll

Lets start from the beginning

2009-01-08T11:56:00.000-08:00

Time flies by so fast and it's a new year!
wow so many things to do so little time :P

incredible how easy it is to jump from one blog to another.trust me, i've had my fair share in that

and probably will be in the very near future. oh well, another thing to add to my

"2009 resolution list" : stick to one blog and feed it please!

yeap thats one out of the many i've

made and yet to make.

with so much on my plate this year and the big "TEA" around the

corner it's difficult to predict my very

existance for the future of 2009.

yeap it certainly is, knowing very well that i'm entering university and embarking on a rather challenging "quest" per-se.

i ask myself, do i fear of whats about to come,

well something inside me tells me
i should yet something else tells me take a

chance and so i did. . . . still not regretting it and excitement flows through my veins! :) whoptydoo! so all in all, i can't wait for what this year has install for me and charging ahead to attain the unpredictable..... if that made sense at all :P

withluv:mel