laughter is what i need right now

Chinese New Year 2009

My favourite chinese new year dish during this festive season. Its absolutely delish and mouth watering. Ughh... how i wish they didn't just sell it during cny. Doesn't matter, thats probably why i appreciate it all the more every year. ;)

well this time food has become a very prominent word in my vocabulary as well as in my stomach, i have never eaten THAT much snacks before in a day for 5 consecutive days. seriously, im glad this just happens for a year or i'll be twice the size i am right now. (or even bigger, yikes!)


no matter cny is almost at an end and not only will i be in better control of my uncontrolable eating habits but i will also be able to open all my angpao's. yep sounds wierd but we are traditional people and it is only right if i do the same. But then again no harm in opening a few packets :p

other than those, been visiting tons of relatives, friends, and random unknown people :P a.k.a parents friends. Making lots of noise and at the same time practicing my tongue-tied cantonese.

Got to know some people better and talk so much till i think my throat is about completely dry.regardless of that with much clatter also came plenty of speechlessness. Yeap sometimes age does matter. All in all i had my fair share of conversations.

Besides hanging out with the relatives, glad i could spend time with my friends both from church and college.

On a heavier note im entering uni in 23 days and my nerves are going crazy.

cant wait! ;)

The stage is yours.

A very fine Saturday today, i woke up early and did my
devotion. It was a time to reflect

about life and what part

or role in life right now i'm taking as a christian.

It's never easy thinking back through the many years

and deciding which scene or part in our existance that we should

place most important.

or to zero into all of lifes happenings and wish that you could remember them clearly.

Well as i try to recall them all,

"time has a funny way on showing you that your aging by the minute".

i just pondered on the complex nature of God.

In my journey, God remains the same.

It wasn't Him that changed for me but rather i changed for Him.

Everyday of my life i knew it's gonna be a new change.

and a good change. For Him being the God that He is crystally reminded me that i could put my trust in him, that all i need and more is right here with me.

So having trust for something intangible cause me to really treasure this relationship cause

it's hardly easy to keep the bond secure if were out of sight.

even as an actress

regardless of the many flaws that occur on stage like forgetting the lines

or tripping in front of a thousand audience

or even being criticized for bad acting skills

i wanna be strong and unyielding

holding steadfast to my passion and keep on trying till i get it.

i wanna be trusting eventhough times are faced to the ground.

and i wanna be hopeful for whats yet to come.

so right now this very second i am an actress and i have a role to play.
not a big part but a part nonetheless.

what am i gonna do with this confidence?

take that role and make every moment of it count.

also with a little of class added to it ;)

Cake full of chocolate lurv.

today was a day full of pain and delight all at the same time. It started of with shopping, one of every girls favourite mode of entertainment and yes i was shopping alone. Well it wasn't that bad, got many things done in a short time and visited many outlets.
Unfortunately almost every clothing store i went to had prices way beyond my budget. So i just stared at them with absolute sorrow.. and passed by. =p

YES very painful to watch but i had to endure.

on the brighter side i got this white long sleeve top which i really like that can be worn on any occation and at the same time able to match with this awesome vest that i bought before.
That cost me only RM29 which was from forever 21. I thought it was a good investment. ;)
although it wasnt some fancy top...me like

Still the worst was yet to come.

Was really looking forward to going to this dinner that was planned a week ago and i told her i could come. But as usual my transportation bailed on me last minute and i couldn't go.
So as human as i can be i sulked and moped around the house like a sloth! haha...
but then i told myself, i'm not gonna let that get the better out of me. SO!
I came out with the most brilliant idea *ting!!* light bulb flashes

i was gonna bake myself a cake full of chocolate love.

and so i did. In the beggining i was quite curious cause according to instructions i had to leave the batter in the oven for an hour and a half. But in the end it came out preety moist.

on the inside that is.. it was completely burnt on the outside. Spent like 1/2 hour scraping of the burnt parts. After that had it coated with chocolate honey drip. Which was extreamily sweet!
but still delicious ;)

if you dont trust me, see for yourself....




okay me and my sister couldn't resist and had to nick a slice of "muahs" scrumptious cake.

living proof of almost half of the cake that was scraped of. The other half that was burnt to a crisp! :P

a very satisfied customer ;)

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Anyways the bottom line is that i ended the day well :)

my cake turned out OKAY, i bought a simple but nice top.* didn't splurge*

and overcame some of the worlds most crappiest moments.

So yea there are ups and there are downs but the moment we choose to take hold of the situation, the outcome is very rewarding... and i like to think that God has every influence in my choices. It's what makes me.

Rambut Potong.

i easily get bored with my hair style so i had to do something with it . i think it's inevitable for me to ever keep long hair.
sighh...

some of my seriously poser pictures, don't mind the face i'm actually promoting my hairstylist which i forgot to ask her name.

this beautiful dress that i spotted at "the island" however too expensive for my taste, or maybe too expensive for me to afford....
which reminds me... resolution no.9..=p









Thats what girls do...









girl's enter lala land...

more extream lala poses.













Snap back to reality..

Jack of all trades, master of none.

At the present,

i always say that i'm gonna do this or i'm gonna keep that or i'm gonna finish this or i'm gonna get that but it's rarely happening in "real life".

it's crazy how your long list of "things to do" which constantly plays in your mind keeps on piling up as we choose not to look after it. yes, it is true the longer the list grows the higher degree of stress we attain.

it's actually scientifically proven by the "National Place To Prove It's True".
So for what it's worth i believe that this year has to become some what of an accomplishment and in order to achieve that i am gonna have to take desperate measures.hence i have written a list of things which i must to do so that my miscellaneous will be much easier to handle.

Compulsary things to do:

1. Tidy up the bed.
2. Pick the poop
3. Bathe the dog
4. Clean the floor's
5. Study!
6. Drink water.
7. Feed the animals.
8. Study again!
9. Walk the dog?
10.JOG!

sounds like a fairly monotonous life, i know! it's kinda what goes through the four corners of my head every single day!. It's a vicious cycle that everybody goes through.

However through my life time experience it's not as uninteresting as it seems. There are always ways to create the fun out of all the boring-ness that we see.

So all i gotta do is think positive. Think that when i tidy up my bed i wouldn't have to do it later, or when i pick the poop i wouldn't have to pick it twice *just incase the scoop cannot contain all the poop the 1st round*, or when i bathe the dog my friends will have no reason whatsoever not to come and visit me, or when i drink water i wont have to complain of constipation =p... and so on. See i'm feeling the fun already.

Oh well it's something i have to do to keep myself entertained.

many things we say or think may eventually end up not being done, but it's not how many things you can achieve that makes a person but weather you did it with purpose for excellence that builds their character.